Wordless Wednesday: A new day dawns

Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day.

It's time to change directions. It's taken me a couple of months to get to this point but I think that I finally get it - no more swimming upstream. I am exhausted. You sent someone to see me a couple of months ago and they told me what you needed me to do and I've been resisting because I felt that my way was better than the path that you laid out for me. I don't know why I doubted or why I thought that I could do a much better job that you. Today I finally got it and truth be told I'm exhausted cause it's tiring swimming upstream.

I'm putting it all your hands, I'm giving it all to you. I can't do this my way anymore cause my way ain't working, you're going to have to carry me for a while.


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Last night I had a dream. I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonged to me, the other to the Lord.  



After the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that at many times along the path of my life, especially at the very lowest and saddest times, there was only one set of footprints.



This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.  “Lord, you said once I decided to follow you, You’d walk with me all the way. But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life, there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.” 



The Lord replied, “My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of suffering, when you could see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”

When words just aren't enough...

What do you say when words are not enough. There are cards and pithy sayings for every momentous occasion in life but what do you say to someone who has recently lost a loved one. What do you say to a parent who has lost a child.

A dear friend recently lost her son who I have never met, but have come know and love through the stories and pictures of him. Today was his memorial service and it was a beautiful send off for a much loved son, brother and friend.

It was an honour to have been there - Thanks for having me and allowing me to share in the celebration of Gus.

Feeling a whole lot brighter

It's a new week so new tings-a-gwaan.

Excuse me for a minute, I just need to cry...

Please note - This blog contains real life emotions and foul language so if this will offend, read no further. I'll be back to normal in a few. 

Well this week has ended with a major fucking bang! I feel really shitty and in need of a good cry!  In Month 5, heading into Month 6 of unemployment and all of a sudden it just feels like I'll never find another fucking job. I am so sick and tired of congratulating other people for the jobs that they've landed and trying to find really positive words to encourage those looking for a job.

I've run out of steam! I don't want to comb my hair, brush my teeth, shower or make witty conversation with people who call wanting to know why I'm not returning their phone calls. Well here's why fuckers - take it personal or don't take it personal I ain't talking to nobody these days. (Except Mags, Shoppers and G  - who are really helping me from descending into sheer madness)

For some reason this month it's hitting me really hard and I just don't feel like doing anything other sitting on the couch in my jammies which is exactly how G found me earlier today. After listening to me wail about my miserable life, he sent me upstairs to put my game face on before we went across the street for a coffee and a good cry (Me not him).

So if you're reading this and about to call please note:

• I'm not meeting anyone for lunch, coffee, dinner (certain exceptions apply - if you're wondering if you are the exception then guess what you're probably not) 
• I'm not talking to anyone other than a prospective employer right now (I've heard the pity in your voice and listened to your condescending remarks about why I'm not employed and all I gotta say is Karma is a mother fucker, you'll get yours bitch!)
• I am not interested in doing your marketing work for free to keep my skills sharp (I have an hourly rate and I actually have clients so if you think it's too high - FUCK YOU!)
• I'm not calling around to find a painter for you for since you think I have lots of free time on my hands
• I am not going to pull the dandelions out of your front garden for $40
• I am not interested in joining your Ponzi scheme
• I'm not going to run by your house to feed your dog, cat, goldfish or water your plants while you are at a work event
• I'm really angry and don't have any positive energy for anyone. Why don't you try pumping me up for a change?
• As well meaning as your suggestion was, I will not submit my application to be a school bus driver or work in the school cafeteria.
• If you are in any way, shape or form related to or resemble the spineless asshole that fired me (because he has no balls and is fucking his boss) I will run you over with my car.

Well I feel so much better now that I've said my piece, how about you?

Dear God. Are you listening it's me ....Mim aka Foxy Forties

I was born on a Saturday at 9:56am so if I following the nursery rhyme is true, I have to work hard for a living. Well that just sucks the big one!

Hmmm... if I adjust the year that I was actually born and put in the year that I actually tell people...oh that's much better...

Monday's child is fair of grace....

Patience is not a virtue that I have inherited but I must be patient because all good things come to those who wait...or rather to those who stomp their feet and act like a child.....